Welcome to the Forum! Very thoughtful post. Prayers that you are at peace in your spiritual journey. Hopefully, you'll find your time here to be both spiritually and intellectually rewarding. We're a very diverse community - Eastern and Oriental Catholic and Orthodox, as well as a sizeable number of non-Eastern Christians, mostly Latin but a few members of other Churches as well who, although committed to their own Church, have an abiding respect for and interest in/love for the spirituality and praxis of the East.
"One day all our ethnic traits ... will have disappeared. Time itself is seeing to this. And so we can not think of our communities as ethnic parishes, ... unless we wish to assure the death of our community."