I am a convert from Russian Orthodoxy to Catholicism and I'm having a difficult time. I know our faith isn't based on private revelations but there are some things I just can't seem to put together.. For example, from the Catholic side we have miracles were Our Lady herself speaks in support of the Immaculate Conception, the Papacy (Our Lady of Good Success).. There are converts from Orthodoxy who went on to live very holy lives such as Mother Catherine Abrikosova or Blessed Leonid Fyodorov.
I always heard about Orthodox miracles too but I thought, there's no contradiction, they have the Eucharist after all. Recently I read about Orthodox Saint Procopius of Ustiug and I just can't figure out how to understand it all. In Orthodox writings they say he was Catholic and then saw the beauty of the Byzantine liturgy in Novgorod and became Orthodox. But a copy of Latin psalms were found on him as he died and I read that the Schism wasn't immediate... The excommunication between the representatives of the East and West happened in the 11th century but most ordinary people didn't even know about it and the Schism took a few centuries.. Especially in Russia which was more removed. Procopius lived in the 1200is and died at the very beginning of the 1300s. So was there even a Schism there at the time? However the West attempted to invade Novgorod in the 1200s and a lot of the events were related to political situations relating to the Schism so I don't know... I can't tell if he just wanted to be Eastern, or if he wanted to leave union with Rome and was aware of that.
The reason I'm asking is because he went on to live a really humble life filled with miracles! If the Catholic Church is the true one how do we understand that? I'm wondering if anyone knows the history and maybe Novgorod wasn't aware of the schism at the time? Or is there some explanation?
And on the other hand there are all those Catholic miracles clearly and explicitly supporting Catholic doctrines like the Papal Infallibility, Purgatory, Immaculate Conception etc! I am Catholic but I struggle with fear and scruples and something like this is very confusing to me and I just can't figure out how to put it all together with the Catholic understanding. Today I honestly felt like I was losing my faith and had a strong temptation to give up. I got so afraid I'm wrong in being Catholic but I'm afraid to leave Catholicism too. There are reasons I believe in the Catholic Church.. I would appreciate any thoughts and prayers.. Or any information that could help me understand the Orthodox Saint i read about.. Thank you
Last edited by LittleFlower; 08/08/17 10:40 PM.